I believe in a thing called love.

"It's tearin up my heart when I'm with you, But when we are apart I feel it too..."

I'm uber bored so here I am.

I have come to the conclusion that I will love my lame ass music til the day I die.

Also, Joel has my heart and he always will no matter what happends between us... 4 years ago I gave it to him and it's non-refundable. Yep. I hope we can make it for years and years and years. I miss him. I miss him. I miss him.

I don't believe that anybody will read this.

But here I am.

Rockstar by Nickelback is overplayed, but I still enjoy it.

I can not see without my contacts in. But I am too lazy to put them in.

I think I am funny.

I think I am beautiful.

I think I could stand to lose a few pounds.

I am nothing special. I am not interesting.

But I'm the funnest person you'll ever spend time with.

I love making people laugh.

I quite enjoy being intoxicated, but can have just as much fun completely sober.

I'm ready for my friend soul-mate to come home.

I am scared as hell of getting a job.

But I am going to get one.

I am a failure.

I dropped out of highschool. Twice.

I quit my job. Twice.

I have 3 children. They are the greatest children and I love them with my life.

They are the best kind, because when I am done I give them back. :D

I miss them dearly :(

I have found out who my real friends are and I know they'll be there forever.

I've come to realize my sister is not perfect, but I don't love her any less nor do I judge her.

I love Jesus and I need to talk to him more.

I wish I knew where my bible was :(

The idea of religion still scares me. Even though I don't want it to.

I am very confused. About almost everything.

I constantly open the refridgerator door and stand there until somebody reminds me of what I am doing.

My mind wanders constantly.

Sometimes I can't sleep because of it.

I am very emotional.

So very emotional.

I feel more intensely than most everybody else.

If I love you, you are my everything and I will do anything for you, whether I've known you for 2 weeks, a few months, or all my life.

If I hate you it is very hard for me to get over it.

I hold grudges like nobody's business.

I hate lying.

I hate liars.

I do not lie.

I RARELY omit certain truths.

When I have lied in the past, it has brought pain to people that I love and I refuse to do it.

I will only lie in certain circumstances.

For instance, if it is not my secret to tell.

However, I am a horrible secret keeper. Strangely.

I love the song Hey There Delilah.

I can not sing.

But I will always sing out loud.

And have fond memories of people rolling up their windows as to drown me out in the car next to us.

I have my driver's permit.

But I am still not ready to take the driving test.

I have not tried to parallel park.

I love to drive.

If I had no friends, and no family, and no life what so ever, I would try cocaine.

Potatos that grow things freak me out.

Tornados freak me out.

I am constantly freaking out while in the car, for fear of a wreck.

Though I've never been in a serious car accident.

No matter how hard I try, spiders give me chills up my spine no matter the size.

I am obsessive and needy.

I am paranoid.

I can not go to sleep without reconciling.

I am not ready to get married, as I once believed I was.

I am also not ready to have children.

My birthday is in 31 days.

I love disney movies.

I do not know how to end this entry.